pregnancy related bitching posts.

I haven't felt much like writing lately. I'll get back into the swing of things, I hope. I've just been SO tired and blaaaaaah all the time. Let me start by saying that if you're one of those people who is going to yell at me because "you should be grateful that you're even pregnant and some people would kill to be in your shoes so shut the F up with your stupid whining", then I guess you should probably just stop reading now.

Because while I love being a mother, I love my son, and I will love this baby just as much, I just don't like being pregnant all that much, mmm k? It has nothing to do with how "grateful" or "blessed" I am...I get that. I've dealt with a loss before. I know how it feels. But that doesn't mean I have to love being pregnant.

My body turns against me in every way possible and it seems to be getting worse every time I get pregnant. Everyone is telling me this means I'm having a girl...I believe it. Only a girl would relish in making her mother this miserable from day one. :-p

If I wasn't so vain, I'd post a picture of my face, which looks worse than a hormonal teenager's worst day of adolescence. WTF? I have really pretty, clear skin (rosacea aside) and so this pisses me the F off. Why do I have a grapefruit bulging out on the side of my chin? And it HURTS! Also- I'm walking around scratching myself like I have a skin disease because I am SO itchy. I had no idea this was a pregnancy side effect until yesterday, when Hub finally looked it up after seeing me scratch myself like I have fleas for two weeks. Sure enough, baby-related. Nice! 

Also- I think I've mentioned that I've already gained weight and my clothes are getting tight. How is that possible? This thing is the size of a pinto bean and yet my ass is already expanding. Egads.

Ok, so now that I have that out of my system I will try not to bitch for a while or be one of those people who talks about her pregnancy 24/7 because that's annoying. On a non-baby related note, I want a hair color change. I saw this photo of Ashlee Simpson and I'm thinking I want her color. It's quite a bit lighter than my hair is right now, and the shade of red is different...closer to what I wanted in the first place. Mine still has a little of that violet hint to it, which makes me want to puke.



Thoughts?

Anyone watch Big Love?


My most favorite show. Seriously who ever thought they could make polygamy look sexy. I keep asking myself how I would feel if Hub came home and said he wanted another wife. I think I would be ok with it as long as she was deemed the "cleaning wife" and I was the "hot wife". She'd have to be pretty ugly, so ugly, in fact, that he'd never sleep in her room...hmm...maybe we just need a maid.